The Holidays

I really don't like the holidays.  In fact I dread them.  I don't like digging box after box of decorations out of my storage room (or this year waiting for Ben to do it), setting everything up then taking it down a few weeks later.  My family is full of drama and it's times like this I am thankful I live in another state.  I only wish I lived farther away....  The only thing I am looking forward to is seeing my kids faces Christmas morning, it's the only thing keeping me going right now.

I am now 25 weeks pregnant and still sick.  I am still taking my medication every day and I am sore in various spots all over my body.  If I was unsure before I am sure now that this is the last one.  I am too old to do this again- my body just can't take it and I don't know if Ben can either.  It's a good thing we have plenty of family and friends still having kids so Ben can get his baby fix when ours is a raging 2 year old.  

Christmas is only fun and exciting again when you have kids.  For Christmas this year Ben and I bought our first couch- ooohhhhhh, ahhhhhhh.  Not very fun or exciting.   

My house is still a disaster and I can't wait for someone, anyone to help me before I just sit down and cry (again) and try to deal with the fact that Ben is not going to help me unless I beg him (again) and I just can't hear his big sigh of resignation right now.  I am doing my best to keep up on the day to day mess of a family, but it's all the little things that somehow don't make it back to their home that I despise.  So, have a nice day everyone- I am going to go eat some chocolate.